My Life ; No Money DayDream

Lesson Learnt

2010-04-06T23:15:00.003+08:00

Why things has become so bad ? Why cant it be smooth journey for us ? Every little obstacle along the road of journey will always lead to UNHAPPINESS. I just simply don't get it. Why do human being cannot be more forgiving and let the problem be a small problem to us ? Why must it blew it out and make everyone around us unhappy.

I have really learned a hard lesson from my previous encounters. I do have nasty attitude. I simply don't really care what people are thinking. I just have my way of thinking. This leads to a result of losing someone who you don't really bother and everything is too late. Which has really knock me awake that if i don't cherish nor treasure someone who is important to me, I will be the only one regret.

For 7 freaking years. I have been waiting for someone to appear. And soon, she appear out of somewhere. Somewhere who is near me yet so far. Just a little step later, I lost. Despite the waiting time is like infinity, I chose to wait. With the will in my mind, the day will come.
The ever 1st sight i got from her is, sweetness in her. She may be attitude, nasty to me which make me so angry that i cannot tolerate anymore, i burst all out. This is the time, everything changes. She is no longer being so nasty nor attitude to me. We do have fun and laughter, topic to talk about. This make me realized that i have really fallen for her.

Though the journey for us is really damn hard and tough, we managed to walk through together. This CHEN JIU KAN make me feel that, i must really cherish her and give her what i have. Despite her getting angry with me over trivial matter, i willing to give in to her. After all she is my loved one. But whenever i get angry with her over something, do expect that she will come and hong me, she will get angry with me more. Angry is just a matter of time, i just cooled down simply fast. I will just go over and talk to her, which her smile melted everything inside me.

The gentle side of her is always the best i'm looking for. No one can be that sweet compared to her. She has emerged into my life. She is all i have. Though i may say something nasty, but its just a temper bursting out of my mouth. It may not the the true. I'm afraid we might not understand each other well enough which will lead to unsatisfactory.

In order to maintain all this, we must be more forgiving than wad human being are. Letting the matter off instead of blowing it out of a volcano. I believe no one wish to quarrel almost everytime over things that we shouldn't be quarreling.

Whatever it is, i have never say i don't want you. YOU ARE MY LIFE. Everyone does mistake, do forgive me if i have ever done anything wrong. LOVING YOU WITH ALL MY SOUL.

I'm back once again.

2010-03-24T20:35:00.002+08:00

My this blog has been so dead. Recently many thing has happened. Be it work, personal problem, family issue ; bla bla bla. Nevertheless, I'm back again. Its for my **** sake. If not i also won't be bothered. =)

It been like almost half a year since my last updating of blog. Been so busy wooing a girl who caught my eyes. Finally i got hold of her hands. And its time to train some endurance. Time flies really fast. I have been with my company for like almost 1year 6months liao le. Been struggling in that stupid company. The work is like madness with a 1 person lowly paid salary. I feel so pathetic, but i know i have to hang on because i still have my **** to support.

Every early morning, have to drag my 2 little small foot to my office.

Soon will be my sister's and brother's birthday. They are hosting their party at either pasir ris chalet or changi. I cant really remember. Anyway, I gonna get a Coach Wristlet for my Sis as she has bought me AX belt for my birthday last year. Hope that the party will be a nice one.

Alriight. Soon we will be embarking into our 3rd month. Somehow or rather, I got her a surprise. In fact, it's not really a surprise. Cause i bought her something. I just hope she will like it.

I think i shall stop here for today.

Am i starting not to understand you!?!

2009-11-22T15:32:00.004+08:00

Its been a stressed week for me after my long break of leave.
On my birthday, i K.O. Its seem a bad day that day. Everything just seem not going smoothly.
After we meet up with my friends and headed to the pub, she don't seem to bother about my exist.
The moment we reaches the pub, things is still the same. Sometime just cant figure out what she is thinking. That night i was drinking with a not good mood. Just before i could entertain the rest of my friends, i already half sober. Whatever happen that night, i don't seem to remember.

Am i starting not to understand you?!
It seem to me that you have changed ever since the past 1-2weeks.

I dunno issit that you have anything hiding from me or am i just thinking too much.
I been having terrible headache during work. I been thinking of you. Wondering what exactly are you thinking. What really happen that make me feel that your attitude to me is become worse.

Hoping you could be more open to me.

Happy 22nd Birthday !

2009-11-13T10:42:00.002+08:00

Though today is my 22nd birthday, but everything seem to be so bored. I doesn't have any exciting mood at all. What's going wrong ??

yesterday went to MS to see clothes. But doesn't feel like buying. So we went to play some pool game. Somehow, there's a group of kids beside our table playing pool. Kinda noisy, cause you know kids is damn irritating. So while playing, at this moment, OMG!
Dunno to get angry or happy. Once of the kids is just blind, he did not see who's behind him and he raise his cue and poke till her butt. Knn! But after that, she won a game. With a damn serious and angry look. I so fear of her that serious look. Haishx.

So i told her let's go. Dun wan play le. Its irritating and we headed to the catching toys area. I tried to catch a "Dino" for her as she been asking for it and this is the right time to make her happy. With a $1.00 coin, i caught the Dino and i feel so proud of me cause she is able to smile.

What to do?! She worth me doing so much for her.

Will be heading for some dying of hair and trimming. Hoping to be a good day and night for me.
Will there be any surprise for me?

Can you make me have an unforgettable 22nd birthday???!~

Bad start of the week

2009-11-12T03:52:00.002+08:00

It seem that this week doesn't look good for me.

Been quarreling for the past few days.
I will endure your nasty attitude no matter how hard it can be.

Monday, went Jurong Point to shop some clothes and accessories for Joey, wanting her to look wonderful on my Birthday this coming Friday.
After so long, finally she can get to wear heels because i do let her wear it even though she may look taller than me. I don't really mind. =)

Today went Jurong Point again to catch a movie. By the time i reached Jurong Point, its about 9pm. So we watch " Joker King " . Its really a joke movie.
In the cinema, its so cold. But the funny part is, out of all the part of her body that will be cold, her nose feel cold instead. I was trying not to laugh, but i just cant help it.

Haha. She is just CUTE in some way.
Maybe this really attracted me. heeheex.

After movie, we went for some supper at Mr. Prata and i walk home with her.
Hope i wish that the road ahead is endless, so i can continue to walk with her.

Its fated we meet in this lifetime, bringing fun and laughter to your life.

Entrust yourself to me? =D heeheex!!

Shopping Spree

2009-11-09T22:50:00.003+08:00

you worth me doing so much, but why cant you just appreciate what i done for you?

2009-11-08T12:11:00.002+08:00

Its been quite some days since i last updated this blog, People do complain why love here and there !! =x zz
Been struggling for work, hoping its weekend. Nothing much happening recently. Yesterday, went to bugis to catch up with my sister and her friend.

I reached at Iluma at 6.30pm and i waited 1hours plus. What to do. GALS !!! Finally they reached and they straight went to play some jackpot game. After a few try, they just gotten a few tickets. So i try once and who knows, I tio the jackpot. second try i tio 250 tickets.

Okay, that's it. they went to redeem 2 bunny for herself and her friend. But i got none at all despite the tickets is me who got it. =( After redeem the bunny, we went to have some drinks at a yoghurt station because my sister feet is pain in hell due to wearing new shoe.

So i have to called joey to get a pair of cheap slipper for my sister as she is meeting us for steamboat. After meeting up with us, my sister change to the slipper and we went to Bugis street to have a look for clothes. My sis and friend trying to doll joey up, but she seem shy? Or maybe doesn't have the mood. So its alright. We headed down for steamboat.

During the steamboat, we eaten quite a lot till we are all so full. But in the progress of eating, i can see how girls gossip. Sister and her friend was talking things, gossiping. Omg !! Girls !

After steamboat, actually wanted to head down to Iluma Seven, But due to money issue, We headed to Networms for lan gaming.

Joey seem unhappy, tired. I know something is wrong, but she doesn't seem wanna tell me. So never mind. I let her try 1 dota game, she don't know how to play. Hahaha !!~

After that i take over and she rest. Time is getting late. is gonna be 4am. So we headed back by cab, and my sister doesn't allow me to sit at the back with her =(

Bo bian, i have to sit in the front sit. Ok, reaches home. Took a bathe and rest.

**Maybe .. . . happiness waits for all those who cry, all those who hurt, all those who have searched, and all those who have tried, for only they can appreciate the importance of all the people who have touched their lives.

("V") you Baby !

2009-11-03T21:42:00.003+08:00

Oh, today is my company's event. We will be having town hall at 4.30pm later on. So today will be working till 4.30pm. After that will be a short party for us.

Today, i got a complaint case which i forgotten to enclose giro form to those affect client. There was about 292 client that was affected. So I have to take up the blame. Don't know what will really happen to me. But, take it easy. My sister told me, which human does not have any error. So i try not to think about it. And soon will be 4.30pm. And we will be heading to DBS building Auditorium for our town hall event. So our CEO will be talking to us about our plan for year 2010. So after talking about those things which make to wanna fall asleep, there is a speaker that will speak to us.
He is the 1st best speaker named Ramesh. He is indeed a best speaker. He is some sort funny in the way he speak. He did talk about boy girl relationship, how girls react to guys.

And what amazed me is that, what he say about the girls reaction is totally the same as my girl.
Its indeed true. So i do understand you a lot. So after the speaker talk finish, he asked us to memorize 30 words. At 1st i only can remember 10 words, But he teaches us how to remember all the words, Girl, i will teach u. =)

So after the town hall, we head down to Clarke Quay PumpRoom for our party.
Well, I went there just to eat and drink. Can say that i never really drink a lot, but my head simply is techno-ing. Maybe its because i did not get to drink for quite some time. But never mind, Next Friday 13 Nov will be my birthday, i will be the one drop dead 1st. Baby, i will keep you accompany next Fri, i won't leave you alone there. Take my words. =)

So after the party, i headed home alone. Decided to take a cab home. So i called my baby and chatted with her. When i hanged up, the driver uncle suddenly talk to me. About girls and guys relationship. He said what must enjoy the happiness before getting the girls. Some sort like that, as i'm abit techno-ing, i don't bother what he said, So i reached home. Bathe and wait for baby call.

I gonna end here. Good Night everyone.

** Maybe .. . . the best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on a porch and swing with, never say a word, and then
walk away feeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

All for you ! ("v")

2009-10-31T01:00:00.004+08:00

Long time did not update blog le. Doesn't have the time to update. Been busy with work and some personal things. Today is friday and we are going to have dinner with mummy as her birthday is on saturday. After work, been slacking around office to let time pass while waiting for her. She called and said she leaving house le, but i din know the rain is still raining heavily. So i decided to leave office and wait for her at my house Mrt station.

As time pass by, i waited for quite some time. I din know what had happen to her during this 2 hours. I din ask her and she kinda not happy with me. So nvm, i went ahead for my dinner 1st while she waited for me around the neighbourhood.

I wanted to bring you along with me, but it seem that you don't feel like it. i don't wanna force you do things which you don't like. Though i really wish you can really follow me and this remind me of what you said to me in the cab. You remember>? Haishx.

After dinner, went back home for a cake-cutting session. Sister and mummy keep asking me to bring her up to eat cake. I know she won't de but i tried. After cutting cake, took a pcs of cake and went down to give her eat. She loves cake alot. Dunno why =x

Meet up with her, chit chat and talking. i can hear her laughter and i can also see her teary eyes.
While chatting, out of sudden she shouted " oh shit my bread flat liao le " and she took out the bread trying to bloated the bread back to original shape. And this is the moment i started to laugh. i just cannot stand her, she simply look so cuteeeee to me. wahahaha!~

Kinda late le, she wanna go back home le, so i see her board the cab 1st before i go back home. Back home, Sister bf is playing Dota. Oh well, they just started learning how to play. Its alriight, Slowly learn lor.

Okay. Let me show you Darren's master pcs of halloween day! Woots

My master pcs for MSN!

This look eerie and spooky

Wahaha. Green man =x

Good take! Black and white version.

Look disgusting, but is traffic light =p

Give and expect no return!

2009-10-27T19:51:00.005+08:00

Whenever we talk about this particular topic, I start to feel so down. It always make me think that someone start to regret what had happened. Someone been saying, don't want hurt me or see me sad. meaning behind it seems to make me think, she's gonna leave one day eventually. My heart just being pierced through by thousands of arrow. I just really hope she don't mention this anymore.

Today, she ask me a question which i see le, i really no mood. " If she din ask, i won't say out? " I just want her good, i din ask for more. One day, if the "if" is impossible, i also won't hate her de. Its not her fault, we cant clap with one hand. I only want her to be happy always. Cant be with me, its ok. Zhi Yao Ni De Dao Xin Fu !

See-ing you doing so much things for *** but *** seem don't really care, i feel so sad for you seriously. I really hope *** will really changed and don't wait till lose it le then start to regret.

Fri, I rather don't see you then letting you walking in the street alone. Even though i really wish to see you in front of me. Hope you understand.

**Maybe . . . the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything that comes along their way.

Wedding Dinner

2009-10-26T20:12:00.008+08:00

Yawn! Si Char Bo, don't want update blog. Haishx. Alriight. Yesterday went for my cousin's wedding at Jurong Safra. Before that, went to jurong point to meet char bo for dinner and some durian dessert. After eating, went to meet up with bro and sis, and char bo wanna walk home instead of taking bus. Telling me her ex-link no money. =.=|"

After meeting up, we went to Jurong Safra for the dinner. The moment we reach there, we were like so stranger to all the relative there. Maybe is because we didn't meet up for 4-5yrs maybe. Everyone is changing and that's why they don't recognise us. But nvm, we were slacking outside the ballroom while waiting for our father to come. Once we meet up with our father, all the relative say we changed alot. And one relative ask whether i got girlfriend. Haishx. thinking of this, so sad.

And our table is far at the back. It was so turn off. Though i thought we will be sitting in front because we are relative. But. Who knows.

Well, dinner is starting and the bride and bridegroom is entering the ballroom, Haishx, its so sweet. Both is so young, they are just 23 yrs old this year. So dinner continue, and we just enjoy the food. =)

After the whole dinner, its 10+pm le. kinda late. And we are staying behind for a family photo which consists all the auntie and uncle. After that, we went back home. Its kinda tired.

Today's char bo English paper, hoping she will do well for it. Think not gonna see her till next week le. Haishx. Good Luck for your paper! It's okay if you din do well, at least you tried your best can le. jiayou!! KamPateh !!

**Maybe . . you should hope for enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, and enough hope to make you happy.

Halloween night !

2009-10-24T02:22:00.003+08:00

Wow, it's Friday. After work, i went to meet her and we headed to bugis for dinner. Hmmm, today jenny cooking dinner for us but i'm unable to attend the dinner because it's too last min. So i asked my sister to go back for dinner instead. Haha !! So ok, we headed down to bugis for dinner. We went for MAC, although the place is packed, she just dun want to give up. Die die also must eat MAC.

After our dinner, we went to shop around for clothes but couldnt find any suitable. So is empty-handed. We thought of going iluma to see whether got any suitable shirt but nothing suit me so we went to our usual place for JACKPOT.

Wow, is 8pm soon! We straight went to Night Safari Halloween Night. The moment we step in the entrance, its all packed with people. We queue up almost 1 hour just for the tickets. Once we got our ticket, is already 9++ so we went for the Night Show 1st.

The Night Show not really interesting but the speaker of the show is damn funny and guai lan. She can be a very good comedian !!! After the show, we went for our TRAM OF TERROR !!!

1st round of the tram trip is all about animals, all sort of funny animals. Kinda interesting cause we get to see tiger, lion, buffalo and a very cute male Elephant. When we ride past the male Elephant, he was dancing !! Holy. Isnt it cute??!

2nd part of the ride is entering the Halloween Hell Gate. Wahaha!! At 1st i thought it will be really scary. But indeed i laugh at the halloween. Because there is a chinese lady ghost that i saw, is the most ugliest. I just cant stop laughing but beside me that gal scared until bad words all pili pala coming out from her mouth. Wahahaha!

After Night Safari, we went to west coast park to chill out, chit chating and have supper.
We was lying on the paramid. Talking awhile and she simply going to doze off but she deny it. Lols. After awhile we feel some droplets of water, its gonna rain and we decided to go back home.

So i send her home 1st before i get home. Good night !! Home Sweet Home!

** Maybe . . . the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past; after all, you can't go on successfully in life until you let go of your past mistakes, failures and heartaches.

Miss you lot lot!

2009-10-22T22:06:00.003+08:00

Oh, this will be a short post. Cause i don't know what to write for today. Nothing much for today. Simply is just work today. Been looking @ my phone for the whole morning, waiting for someone to sms me although i knw its impossible. Lols. But she did sms me around lunch time, what shocked me is the 1st msg from her " YOU DIE YOU DIE YOU DIE" LOLs.. kinda cute of her. Is because i din message you that why. Haha.

After work, was intend to OT but in e end never OT because i want to go meet my princess. =x
Went for dinner and simply walking around the shopping centre. But i dunno what happen to her again, she been so guai lan to me. Is it due to didn't get to see each other for few days? LOLs. Bleahx. So was walking around, in e end, ended in the NTUC to get chocolate for her which i forgotten yesterday. Hope you will like it !!

**Maybe . . . it is true that we don't know what we have until we lose it, but it is also true that we don't know what we have been missing until it arrives.

Feel Of Embracing You!

2009-10-21T22:38:00.002+08:00

Hi Lady and gentleman,

Well, here i am again. It wednesday, isn't it fast? Tomorrow will be thursday and soon will be friday. Holy shit !! Today is another kinda fast day for me. But once again, i overslept again. wahahaha! must be wondering what the hell i did last night. Actually nothing much, just too tired. This morning is kinda boring for me in work, cus my buddy is on Half Day leave. And i'm alone again for lunch. So went down to bought my lunch back in the office. Seem so lonely chap!

Oh ya, today is my boss's birthday. And we celebrating for her with a cake from secret recipe. is a chocolate mud cake, Yummy ! Not bad.
After lunch, back to work again. Kinda boring as to do the same thing over and over again. And something caught my eyes , which is there is a delivery man who is delivering a bouquet of flowers to a staff in my department. Wow! is 13 Roses! What does that mean? Hmmm, i not reali sure !!

Hmm, soon will be halloween nite. And the thought of halloween sweeties came to my mind!! Cus i remember last year a babe gave me an halloween sweeties when i just join the company. I just cannot forget that. And the sweeties is still with me till now. =) Somehow, there's a memories in it because of that sweeties, we started talking.. =x

Wow!! is knock off time. did some OT till 7 p.m. and headed back home to change and shower.
Then straight went to have dinner with you !!~ wow! kinda lucky or suay i dunno, i saw my brother at jp. LOLS.
so we went to newly open kopitiam for dinner. I was thinking for so long what to eat, and ended up buying fish ban mian. hmmm. After dinner, talk awhile and headed back home. I'm so sorry i forgotten your chocolate. Will get for you tomorrow =)

**Maybe. . we were supposed to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one so that, when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

Another day without you !

2009-10-20T20:35:00.003+08:00

Time passes pretty fast. Today is Tuesday and once again I overslept again. Must be due to my physical and mental shagness but manage to get to the office at 9 a.m. The moment I step into my office, I found a surprise on my desk this morning. It is SOY MILK from Mr. Bean. Guess who bought it for me. Oh well, its my buddy Melvin Wong. It seem that this only happen once in a blue moon. I really appreciate it. =)

After drinking, get back to work. My desk is full of work to be done. I'm gonna be flooded and at this time, my exec came up to me and ask me " Darren, is your workload a lot for you to handle? I feel that you are doing alot of things ". Oh my goodness, something must have knock my exec up. Hope she will distribute the workload among us so as to lessen my load. =x

Ding Dong! Is 1 p.m. and is lunch time. We went to Ocean for lunch. We order a small claypot curry fish, dao gei and chilli prawn. The claypot curry fish suppose to be fish head but i just don't know how it become fish tail. But its ok, we enjoy the whole lunch and is damn full.

After lunch back to work again and i have to stay OverTime to clear my work.

No matther how shag and tiring it may be @ work, I still endure it because i'm looking forward to Friday. Woot!~ I miss ya !

This big bear is ME who won it @ arcade. Anyone jealous? Wahahaha!!~ Only my angel have it =x

Days without you!

2009-10-19T21:04:00.002+08:00

Hey hey,

Wow! This is my freaking 1st time doing blogging? Is damn weird. Well, Its monday and is working day again. Kinda overslept again this morning. Hoping for a good start of the week. Reach office at 9.10 a.m. and start clearing off the works that was pile up last friday. While doing my own work, out of sudden my executive came up to me and tell me that there will be a meeting between me and her due to my bad performance at work. Oh Gosh, smell something gonna happen. Was kinda low morale and moodless.

After lunch, @ 3 p.m. I went into the meeting room. My exec is saying all the pointers that i did not perform well. bla bla bla!! As a 1 year old baby in this company, she does not expect this kinda little mistake to be made by me. Well, for me, i don't really care what people think of me. If I can get the job done, who cares!!

Bell rings !! Is 6 p.m. and is knock off time. But I stayed back till 7 p.m. to clear as much work as possible. Went to Lau Pa Sat for dinner with Melvin and headed back home. It was a tiring day.